cold mind and empty heart
Can I tell you something? I will just because nobody gives a fuck. You know that feeling when you can’t count on anyone. Just being home alone on a Saturday night and saying to yourself: I’d rather jump off a bridge than feeling this way. Nobody’s there for you, they just pretend to. They call you ”my friend” but they aren’t. Spending most of your time laying in your bed thinking about how much your life sucks? When that nice guy is just a total jerk and don’t care that much about you. I don’t know it’s just so annoying when everything’s crashing down. I’m just wondering how many miles do I have to do to get out of this fucking hell? I mean, I love my family more than anything but sometimes I’d like to fuck off and get so far away that nobody could stay in touch with me. I’m not a fucking keeper. I can’t keep anyone that I love close to me, they all go away. I met the boy of my life 5 years ago and I’m still madly in love with him. What am I supposed to do? Every guy that I’ve met just went away without saying a word. I’m fucking trying, to stay positive everyday, it is hard. Pretending I’m alright, smiling and laughing. Being there for my friends and telling them everything’s gonna be great when for me it just gets worst every night. If someone could walk in my shoes and really understand the way I feel. If someone could actually tell me to don’t worry and they’ll be there for me and mean it. I just want to disappear and never come back. Falling asleep every night wishing I was somebody else. I mean, I met this guy, he was really sweet and his texts would always make me smile but he just fucking left for no fucking reasons and I’m just sad about it like really sad. But tomorrow, I’ll put a smile and my face and say: I’m good, what about you? Seriously, my life sucks. I just want to go back to Simple Plan concert and feeling like I’m 13 years old again.
stay cold and fuck off
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